lucky in luuurrrrve

Turn away now if you don’t want to hear soppy-ness about how happy I am in my relationship, because the fact is, I’ve never been happier.

My boyfriend is the most loving boyfriend anyone could wish for. He makes me laugh and have fun, brings me back down to earth, listens to me when I’m down, provides the best advice, happily puts up with my moods, cares for me in every way, makes me feel good about myself, and asks me how my day is every day.

I feel so lucky to have him as mine, and I can’t wait for whats to come.

Chris, I love you so much.

inzekwritees goway

A friend of mine who is rather spiritually inclined told me recently that I have an “Open Solar Plexus”. Apparently this is one of your Chakra’s. It it the center of your being, which handles personal power, self-esteem and personality, and deals with issues like rejection, self-image, trust and fear.

She told me that mine is open, and therefore I tend to take on a lot of other peoples emotions in these kinds of areas. At the risk of sounding self-absorbed, I do feel like I take on other peoples issues probably too much. 

I also am a notorious “worry wart”. I fucking hate being like this. I worry way too much about things that aren’t worth worrying about. I fear rejection. I criticize my self-image. And I’m sure a lot of other people do these things too. The thing is, I’m over it.

I’m over stressing so much about what people think of me, of my relationships, of the way I go about things, of where and with whom I spend my time. 

I’m over feeling insecure because of the fear of what other people might think. 

I’m over expectations, judgments, negative influences, and unwritten rules.

I don’t need any of these things in my life, because I don’t deserve them.

So I’m going to make a pledge to myself.

I promise to make a concerted effort to put up a wall to all this negativity, and only allow positive energy to enter my Solar Plexus. I will have a positive self-image, go ahead without fear, express the happiness my relationships with loved ones bring me without fear of judgement, and say goodbye to negative influences.

I’m doing this for myself, because I deserve it.

:)

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Over this.

How I feel.

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How I want to feel.

 

Oh hey, old friend.

Dear Blog,

I apologize for having not been in touch for so long, for not keeping you updated with what’s been happening in my life. (Not that you ever called to ask how I’ve been, but whatever). Nevertheless, I thought about how much I’ve missed you, so I thought I’d give you another chance. At least until I forget about you again.

Sincerely,

Sinead.

Now that that’s over, here’s a little blabber about my recent thoughts.

I miss singing and recording and performing. I’m in a whole lotta debt. I really want to go back to Uni. I have the strongest person in the world as my best friend. I wish I had time to be home more. Or made time. I’m working at SABA. I have the coolest boss. I have some big decisions to make. I wish I could afford guitar or piano lessons. I love fairy cards. I have learned about struggle and realized how little people know about the hardest things. I want to help them learn just as I have. I’m starting to doubt the quality of my Uni degree. Maybe I should choose a back up? If I ever go back. My sisters are growing up way too fast. Starting to feel old. Although I had the best 21st birthday party ever. My friends are insanely awesome (still). I’ve also enjoyed recent catch ups with old friends. Finally, I have the most incredible boyfriend on earth who I’m utterly in love with; I could not be happier in my relationship.

That’s about all I can think of right now.

Feels nice to be typing again, even if it is just rambling.

TTFN x

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 I can’t even explain how happy you’ve made me, so I’ll just put up a photo instead.

Life as of late.

It’s been a long while since I last wrote a blog, and since quite a few things have happened since my last post I figured I’d update you on the hippy haps.

Since returning from London I’ve jumped back into the life I lived before I left – only now I feel so much more knowledgable about things, much braver and so much keener to continue learning about the world. Being back at work is incredibly depressing after being on holiday for 6 months though. Being back in Perth itself has its good and bad moments. Please don’t think I’m not happy to be back, it’s been so much fun hanging out with the friends I missed and getting to see my family almost every day, sometimes I just get so depressed about Perth as a city itself! I know it may sound pretentious, but I can’t help feeling almost claustrophobic when I think about how small Perth actually is, haha. I’m finding little things are starting to piss me off when they probably shouldn’t. Like, for example, I was listening to the radio and Whippa or Frizie or whoever was speaking was annoying me INCREDIBLY. His Australian accent was SO exaggerated it just got to me so much that I had to change the station! We don’t all sound like that, do we? Haha. It’s weird and probably stupid, but I think it’s just me being bitter about not being in London. I just miss it so much. Don’t get me wrong, I love Australia – the sun, the spirit, the mateship, all of those things and more. I just love London lifestyle so much. I can’t wait to go back in June with the family even if it is just a short visit :)

Things aren’t all bad in Perth though, because one guy is continuing to make me happier every day :) It’s been so awesome coming back to the real world and being able to introduce Chris as my boyfriend. I’ve never had someone care for me so much and make me feel so incredibly special. He continues to make me smile and surprise me every day; I can’t put into words how lucky I feel to have him in my life, he certainly gives me a reason to be grateful for living in Perth :) haha

In other news, my friends are still as amazing as ever, I’m so happy that Sarah and I have only become closer from the trip, probably way too close at times haha. We actually say the same thing at the same time about 5 times every time we see each other, and some of the things we talk about/say/do make me question if our parents got our birth dates correct or if we were both dropped on our heads as children haha. I love her as much as ever though, couldn’t ask for a better best friend.

That’s about all for now, I am le tired and waiting for that amazing boyfriend I was telling you about to come over :)

Goodnight all, and Happy Valentines Day for tomorrow for tomorrow <3

:)

A head full of happy thoughts.

“A Hidden Forrest”

Hey guys,

Check out some of my AMAZINGLY TALENTED friend Ali’s art! She’s incredible, this girl. I could stare at this particular one forever.

"A Hidden Forrest" by Alison Fisher

This fickle heart itself is on the mend, I hope.

A Change of Pace

My earliest memory of change is probably the first time my family and I moved house. After this, we did it 6 more times. It was a habit of my Mums – she tends to get bored easily, and as much as she was annoying to be around at the time of selling and buying due to stress, I really liked moving house. Obviously, there are a lot of things that change in our lives every day. No matter how minuscule they seem, when you look back on them they form a series of changes, each one somehow linked to another in order to determine a particular outcome and show you how you got to where you are today.

Other than moving house, I hadn’t endured many considerable changes in my life, that was until December 2005 when I met Glynn. During the first stages of forming some kind of relationship, I honestly didn’t believe the choices I made that holiday would mean any massive changes in my life. Partly because I didn’t want anything serious like that at the time, and partly because I saw it as unrealistic due to the distance between us. Obviously that didn’t pan out how I thought it would have, but I’m so grateful for that. Who knows where my life would have lead had he not made that first trip up to Perth. Would I know how to fix a flat tyre yet? Would I ever have visited Manjimup? Would I still be close to Windy Harbour mates? Would I have even made the decision to travel?

The next massive change in my life came in 2007 when I lost my friend Carys. I’d never lost anyone before this – well, not anyone I was close enough with – so this came as a shock. Watching someone who was just as normal as you and I be struck with one of the worst diseases possible and still manage to have a belly laugh and smile was so inspiring. I can’t even imagine how heartbreaking it would be to know that soon you’re not going to be able to hug your Mum and Dad or play with your little sister, give your brother advice – I crumble simply thinking about it. Being able to stay so strong and make the most of her time on earth considering the circumstances is utterly admirable. Carys has changed my life by inspiring me to get out and LIVE. When I’m having a lazy day I can just hear her saying, “Sneably, get off your ass woman!” I like to think she had a contribution in me pushing myself to do this trip.

I honestly feel this trip alone has created change in me. Not me as a person, but the way I think about certain things, my confidence, my level of bravery, my values. As a result of making a decision that lead to a massive change, I’ve learned so much about myself, about places I only ever dreamed of visiting but never considered it would become a reality, about Sarah, and about people I left back home.

Speaking of home, it seems I’m going to return to some big changes. Some not-so-great things have happened while I’ve been away, and some great. My Grandma passed away recently and not long before that so did our family dog, Sol. Glynn now has a new girlfriend which is never easy to take in, but as hard as it is sometimes, I’m happy with the decision we made and I stick by it. My family has moved house (yes, again) which is going to be a massive physical change – to come home to a new house is going to be incredibly strange but also cool – I love decorating a new room! My sister Ashleigh is moving schools which is weird because every O’Hara girl in the family (even Dad’s sisters) has only ever gone to St. Brigid’s. What a rebel. And who knows what else will change from the moment I post this blog til the moment I arrive home?

All I can say for sure is that I like change. It can provide you with incredible sadness or utter euphoria, but something useful always comes out of it. The change itself may not be enjoyable at the time, but the idea that it plays a part in leading to something new is exciting. This trip is probably the biggest change of all, and I feel like it’s struck a chord and created what I hope to be a domino effect of change! Yeah, Domino’s is boring, but change is exciting.

Life in London

OK so yeeeeahh.. should probably write a blog right about now.

Seeing as I have fuck all to do most of my days (which I’m grateful for but is also making me lazy), and my bestest buddy is off working at her bakery (you should see her uniform, massive lols) it’s not like I have an excuse to not be writing. SO, here it is.

As I just said, Sarah has a job at this bakery but she’ll probably want to tell you all about it so all I’ll say is I GET FREE PASTRIES AND UNLIMITED CAKES AND BREAD FUCK YEAH. I love it that she works there but I hate it too, as I’m probably going to balloon by the time the Sisterhood arrives; prepare yourselves people! So yeah that’s awesome.

BUT, this means I’m stuck with Navs (our strange indian housemate if you havent already heard) most days so I should probably get out of the house and do something with my life.

Life here, apart from the freezing, shitty weather (I miss the sun!!) is fantastic. I love the lifestyle so much, the stylish people, the emphasis on theatre, art and music, the easiness of transport, the accents, gah! I could easily live here and to be honest, I’m seriously considering moving back later. Not sure when or if it’ll actually happen, but all I know is that if I want to make something of myself and do what I love – this is the place to do it!

Conor (a really close friend of mine from Primary school whose over here) and I have been jamming a lot and are really close to getting a full set done, our first gig is this weekend so hopefully we’ll be ready by then, argh! I’ve looked into getting a busking license so hopefully that’ll happen too and we can take it to the streets! Also, I’ve been writing lyrics a lot lately and Con has some stuff of his own, so we’re going to try to put together some originals after we’ve gotten started! Yay.

In other news, 20 DAYS PEOPLE! 20 DAYS and the sisterhood will be reunited in foggy London town!! I am actually jumping out of my skin with excitement. I miss you guys so much and can’t wait to show you where we’ve been living and explore with you! We are gonna have the time of our lives.

Not much of a post, but at least it gave you something to do for the last 2 minutes?

Miss everyone and love you all x

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